the between

Today I was thinking what our life looked like a year ago.

Exactly one year ago this afternoon, we had our first visit with the fertility specialist. I was a little unsure about the path we were to take, but God had already planted the adoption seed long before in my heart. It was the day of the beginning of our journey to Bates, although I didn't know it at the time.

It was the beginning of listening to God's call in our life. His call to our son. The son he made just for our family.

365 days ago, I didn't know Bates existed. He was one week old. I was all the way around the world in a fertility specialist office and he was in the NICU in Seoul, South Korea. Isn't it amazing how God works.

One year ago today, I sat in a doctor's office, overwhelmed, anxious, excited, nervous- pretty much the same way I sit on the couch tonight.

Our life was so different 365 days ago. And I can only imagine the difference our life will take in another 365. I feel like we are in the "between".